Monday’s Journey: Part 4, Wild Ride

I have skipped two posts and this was due to so many up and downs in my life. Even with a illness of Dementia life still goes on around me. Two weekends in a row sitting in ER. First my son, two seizures and broken back. (He’s fine now)

This past weekend, husband in ER blood work had doctor worried, but thank god it was nothing and we were out of the hospital in four hours. But that is not all, stomach virus his our house on top of all this. So, yes, I didn’t even open the laptop the one weekend.

I’m hoping the roller coaster ride is slowing down this person needs a break. But on the Dementia update I’m seeing everyday life things he’s forgetting how to do now. Trash bags give him a very hard time opening.

I asked husband to open a can for me He didn’t know how to operate the can opener.

Another thing I noticed, he’s repeating a little more, afraid of appearing stupid, but then again it doesn’t help to have a family that keep telling him he’s stupid.

If it was thing I would do if it didn’t hurt him is keep him from visiting his family. Again and again, they have treated my husband like dirt and I can’t stand it, but it would only hurt him if I did say anything.

On good news, disability has been approved and he is less worried now a little about money and so am I. He is also keeping busy working on his slot car track, which I believe is helping him concentrate.

Sleep is rough when him, so I’ve given up the bed allowing him to move around in the bed without having to worry about me in it. Soon, when things settle a little I’ll be searching for resources to help us when things get worse. I know one thing I have to worry about is our bathroom.

We have a claw foot tub and when things get worse there will be no way for me to get him into the this kind of a tub and I see him falling face first.

Research is my friend now…

 

The stars are never ending and one day you, my warrior will be riding them, free of pain, confusion and hurt.

Monday’s Journey: Part 3 Every Day Life

This week’s journey deals with every day’ life. As with all children mine are not perfect but they are normal. 🙂 Running to the store for me while I was at work son got into a bender fender. Nothing major, truck has a bump on it’s bumper. Son is paying his ticket, it’s not a drinking and driving nothing like that.

BUT, how does this effect a patient with Dementia? It throws his world into a something he can’t handle. Frustration, anger, slammed  doors, not eating and not sleeping is what we are dealing with this week, not to mention walking on egg shells hoping not to set the man off.

Let’s not forget the son, who is also shutting down, seeing his father sending all this frustration and anger at him when all he did was help his mom. Two strong men, one sick the other hurt, where mom stands between them trying to calm them both.

The house is quiet this morning, laundry has been started, cat boxes cleaned, kitchen cleaned, and I now sit down to drink my coffee, writing my post my stomach in knots. Will he wake in a good mood? Will he go off if son takes the truck again to go to work this afternoon? Is he going to be okay while I’m at work tonight?

So, when you think of events that life throw at you every day, just imagine a dementia person trying to cope with these events when part of his memory processing is leaving him.  Treasure those you have around you, because at anytime they can be gone. Have a wonderful day and remember to breathe, take a minute to step outside and just take in all that is good around you sometimes it’s the only thing that keeps you going.

Monday’s Journey: Part 2

This week was a tough one. My husband had one of, what I call episodes. What are episodes? Let me explain this one. I came home from work, but before this I had texted and asked daughter if husband wanted anything from MC a fast food place.

Daughter texts back, ‘Dad isn’t making any sense, one minute he wants this and then he says this. It’s like he’s answering three times.

So, I get all three things and I come home to see husband on the couch laying down nothing out of the normal there. But when I tell him I got his food, he just rolls over and gives me a look that I have seen and don’t like. He’s lost, does not answer, waves his hand and rolls over again.

I wait putting the food down next on the table, go grab something from the kitchen to come back in and see him trying to open the straw. Five minutes he didn’t say anything while looking at the stray and finally figuring out how to open it. You could see my husband coming back to us.

My husband has had three episodes including the one this week. Each time he has had one I notice something has progressed in this awful disease.

 

How far back has this episode set my husband away from us? So far, I have noticed any big changes. I know he is pulling away from his family, but that is normal since his side of the family have always been very negative around him, calling him names and such.

He now knows too that I don’t want him driving anywhere unless its close and I know where he is. Anywhere else he takes the son and he drives. Soon the driving will be a no and he knows this now. He starts his truck to keep it running in the drive but goes nowhere. TV and his project in the basement is keeping him occupied for now.

I have decided this is the waiting game disease. It tests your patience, your own sanity and your heart. But all we can do is take one day at a time.

Monday’s Journey

Sometime in August 2017 we received the news that changed our world, Dementia. Oh, I knew something had been wrong, the signs were there, having trouble at work, forgetting what he was doing, repeating everything he said. But to actually see the physical signs start to take affect on my husband was a little bit scary and sad.

For over twenty years my husband had supported our family, sure we had our trials up and down over the years, but this diagnosis is a new reality for us all. So, I decided to make Monday’s my day’s to post my journey through this disease. If it helps others out there then great, since I know there are hundreds, thousands going through the same things I am.

We wait for the next step of the disease to start. Will it start when I’m home to help him? Or will it happen when I’m working one of the two jobs I’m holding down? Yes, I count my writing as a job, because I hope one day this will be my full time job, support me, us.

My thoughts are everywhere as his disappear from his grasp. When do we take the car keys away? How much do I ask the children to help? Do I want them to really handle seeing their father so confused?

(No, it’s not my husband, but the picture is so close to the heart.)  I see my husband sitting on the couch, just staring. He does not hear me calling him, there is a blankness in his gaze. Where has he gone? Where is the strong warrior I first saw?

Then theirs THE FAMILY. You know the ones. The ones that don’t care, that only want what is good for them. Who cares that their brother, son is going to pass from this illness as long as they get what they want from him. Why? To this day I still can phantom such people. So, I pull up my big girl panties and act as the shield. Protecting him as much as I can. Making sure his last days are the best I can.

This Monday is all about taking one day at a time and making it the best I know for him. If it means so much for him to be with his family still, even though they are worthless jerks so be it. But they make one wrong move, he gets lost or hurt it will be their last time with him unless supervised. Cross the path of a woman who is protecting her children, because right now the man that was her warrior is now her child on some days and believe me this woman will protect him.

His memory might be leaving him, but mine will be here, guiding him. Where there is darkness I will be his light, let anyone try and darken his path, because I will burn bright all the way through this, sharing my memories.

Until next Monday, may your journey be strong and with bright light.

Share the Love

*•. (★*•.¸★¸.•*´★).•* A Halloween to Remember*•. (★*•.¸★¸.•*´★).•* New Release

In A Halloween to Remember, Book Nine in #1 best-selling Amazon Romance writer Trinity Blacio’s futuristic Running in Fear series, Halloween was supposed to be about monsters, treats and fun, but Shelly Glassgo has had enough of monsters to last her a lifetime. You would think that the threat of war around the corner would bring people together, but that was not the case. How could a big cat love a small wolf?

Bo was tired, with the move, settling his people—and the new ones that were joining their den—it had all kept him to busy. He didn’t see his Little Wolf’s need and for that he would never forgive himself. But Bo was bound and determined to make sure her Halloween was filled with treats—three big ones—Argo, Buck and White Eagle.

All Hallows’ Eve came early for them: their marriage and mating would be one to remember, but it would seem the monsters have been awakened and were getting ready for the attack.

Links:
Amazon: http://mybook.to/AHalloweento

Googleplay: https://play.google.com/store/books/details/Trinity_Blacio_A_Halloween_to_Remember?id=ppg4DwAAQBAJ

Riverdale Avenue Books: http://riverdaleavebooks.com/books/5353/a-halloween-to-remember-book-nine-of-the-running-in-fear-series
Bookstrand: http://www.bookstrand.com/a-halloween-to-remember-book-nine-of-the-running-in-fear-series
Smashwords: https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/751990

With my new releases I’ve decided to do something new. Every new release I will give away a print copy of one of my favorite authors. So, let’s start this!

Ann Mayburn

Website: http://www.annmayburn.com/

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/ann.mayburn.5

Twitter: https://twitter.com/AnnMayburn

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/4827747.Ann_Mayburn

Amazon Author Page: https://www.amazon.com/Ann-Mayburn/e/B0052A6HZK

Pinterest: https://www.amazon.com/Ann-Mayburn/e/B0052A6HZK

 

 

Hannah All my life, I’ve only wanted one thing: someone to love me and someone who will let me love them in return. This seems like a simple request, but I was born to parents who wished I had died of childhood leukemia, instead of my younger sister, and who have ignored me no matter how much I’ve tried to please them. I’m starved for affection, addicted to the feeling when someone cares about me, which has led to a love life filled with either boys I’ve scared off, or men all too eager to take advantage of me. I thought I would never find a man who could feed my craving for constant attention—and then I met Leo. He fills the void inside of me, haunts my dreams, and does things to me in bed that are so good, they’re probably illegal. I can only pray I don’t scare him off once he figures out just how needy I really am. Leo There are very few people in this world I’ve ever been able to form an emotional attachment to, but the moment I saw Hannah, I knew she was mine. We were bound together by fate, our paths crossing first as children, then as adults, each time marking me. She doesn’t know it but I’ve been watching her for a year now, studying her, stacking the deck so when I do make my move, there’s no way she’ll ever escape me. But my world is a harsh, cruel place, and the cartel I work for demands absolute loyalty and trust…a loyalty Hannah has yet to earn in the dangerous eyes of my employers. There is only one way to ensure Hannah’s absolute devotion, and I hope that she doesn’t hate me forever when she finds out that not only have I brainwashed her into loving me, but that I don’t feel an ounce of guilt about doing it. She’s mine, only mine, and I’m keeping her forever.

Directions: For a chance to win the print book of Obsession all I ask is you share the link of my blog post. Post, Share The Love in the comments…I will pick a winner next week, on Friday, Good luck and please check out Ann Mayburn. She is an amazing author, one that I will buy all her books in print, when I can.

Magic, New Mexico

I’m so excited to be a part of Susan Smith’s new world.

 

Nava Torres’ life was one of turmoil and danger. Considered a freak of nature by her peers and hunted by the government, she never expected to find a place where she could feel safe—until she heard about a town called Magic. For the first time since her parents’ deaths, she felt awe, hope, and something even stranger—attraction to a man who could heat her blood with one look!
Special Ops Marine, Saxon Wehurst, had sworn off women—at least until he met a fiery redhead with black streaks that made him want to run his hands through the colorful tresses. There was nothing in the world that could fire up his protective instincts faster than a woman with trouble nipping at her heels and fire in her hair.
When outside forces threaten Nava and the town, Saxon and his men are more than ready to gear up to protect them both. For Saxon, it is personal—nothing stands between a Bull Dog and his mate—not even the government. Will Saxon and his men be able to protect the woman he loves and save the town, or will she be taken from him forever? Whatever happens, it is time to feel the burn…

 

Don’t Just Talk Like A Pirate! Be A Pirate and Find the Magic, New Mexico Treasure! Arrrgh!
S.E. Smith’s Magic, New Mexico Kindle World #3 has released on September 19th which is also “Talk Like a Pirate Day!” Visit each author in the Magic New Mexico Kindle World #3 to find your next clue to the grand prize. Click here  for all the details on how to play. Good luck everyone! Arrrgh!

Here are each author’s page links for your information:
Aidy Award – A Touch of Fate
http://aidyaward.com/fated-for-curves/
CJ Cade – Reaching Reva
http://www.cjcade.com/…/reaching-reva-a-magic-nm-kindle-wo…/
DB Sieders – Silver Unleashed
https://dbsieders.wordpress.com/silver-unleashed-and-silve…/
Donna McDonald – Timeless Topper
http://donnamcdonaldauthor.com/my-crazy-alien-romance/
Evelyn Lederman – A Touch of Harmony
http://www.evelynlederman.com/a-touch-of-harmony/
Immortal Angel & Lisa Hailes – A Touch of Death
http://immortal-angel.com/a-touch-of-death/
Jason Crutchfield – Miss Fortune
https://authorjasonlee.com/miss-fortune/
Jessica Aspen – Touch of Beauty
http://jessicaaspen.com/magicbooks/
Jody Wallace – Silver Bound
http://jodywallace.com/books/silver-bound/
Lea Kirk – Made for Her
http://www.leakirk.com/made-for-her.html
Lexi Thorne – Touch of Winter
http://purplepress.org/magic-new-mexico-giveaway-game/
M.L. Guida – Touch of Madness
http://www.mlguida.com/ml-guidas-magic-new-mexico-kindle-w…/
Sabine Priestley – Tainted Magic
http://wp.me/P77t2k-gr
Tianna Xander – Seducing Sela
http://Www.tiannaxander.com/seducing-sela-2/

Also, as part of the booty, I’m offering a small, surprise box from me with many goodies in it. All you have to do is like my Amazon page and comment Arrgh!

Amazon Author Page

New Doors, Closed Doors

Every day a new door opens, is it what you want? You will never know unless you walk through that door. With me there are many doors opening and closing. Outer worlds, fantasies, and dreams coming true in my stories, each a little part of my soul to share with you the reader.

What do I have open this week????

Door 1. Loving Phoenix, is in edits and I can’t wait to share with you my part of Susan Smith’s world.

 

Nava Torres’ life was one of turmoil and danger. Considered a freak of nature by her peers and hunted by the government, she never expected to find a place where she could feel safe—until she heard about a town called Magic. For the first time since her parents’ deaths, she felt awe, hope, and something even stranger—attraction to a man who could heat her blood with one look!
Special Ops Marine, Saxon Wehurst, had sworn off women—at least until he met a fiery redhead with black streaks that made him want to run his hands through the colorful tresses. There was nothing in the world that could fire up his protective instincts faster than a woman with trouble nipping at her heels and fire in her hair.
When outside forces threaten Nava and the town, Saxon and his men are more than ready to gear up to protect them both. For Saxon, it is personal—nothing stands between a Bull Dog and his mate—not even the government. Will Saxon and his men be able to protect the woman he loves and save the town, or will she be taken from him forever? Whatever happens, it is time to feel the burn…

Door 2. Finding Hope

Book 10 in my Running in Fear series.

Yep, Hope is a bear shifter and she is defending her cubs, but can she also help save Earth and their new world?

Remember pre-quell is free:

Amazon

Barnes & Noble

 

Door 3. Grandma’s Need Loving Too: Book 3

Sea Dog’s Treasure

The call of the sea…
Kati Church felt the unexpected pull of the sea after her husband’s death. With her kids grown and busy with their own lives, she embarks on a new adventure aboard her sailboat, The Lula Mae. She never realizes just how much her life is about to change.
Draper Casimir prefers the blue sea to land. At over three hundred years old, Sea Dog as his crew calls him, would risk the impossible to find his blood mate, a woman as strong as the sea. When Sea Dog spies a lone woman aboard a sailing ship in the Caribbean he knows he has finally succeeded.
With danger surrounding them from both the sea and his enemy Blue Beard, will Sea Dog be able to protect Kati from both the elements and Blue Beard’s sword, or will this old Sea Dog find his blood mate only to lose her forever to a pirate who gives no mercy?

Door 4. White Buffalo MC: Book 2, Dark Horse’s story.

The Heart’s Dark Hunger

He was named Dark Horse for a reason. Even his mother knew the woman that would be bound to him would have to be special, his white Lilly.

Yep, it’s contest time. Today I’m giving away a 25 dollar gift card to amazon! All you have to do is follow me tree places and share this blog, then post your favorite song below.

Amazon

Facebook

Twitter

Contest will run one week. Good luck.

 

 

What Do You See When You Look Up?

 

You ever just sit outside at night and look up at the sky above and wonder what’s out there? Who’s watching? The first story I ever wrote was born on this question, Shannon’s Dream. It’s part of the Fantasy Is Alive series, which I so need to work on the next book.

Blurb:

Can one woman handle a foursome made up of an Anasazi god, a demon and an alpha werewolf as lovers?

Ever since Tabatha’s family was murdered, she’s always faced things head-on, but now those killers and their allies are trying to kill her, too.

As the foursome works to solve the mystery of Tabatha’s special purpose, Wol-itelm, Chax and Hoyt must battle the enemy when it strikes their home. Snakes, wayward demons, and opposing were-clans attack Tabatha every chance they get. All three of Tabatha’s mates must come together to fight these enemies to save the woman they love.

Can they save her, and can they also tame their wild female both in bed and out of it?

Amazon

Publisher

Barnes & Noble

Kobo

Itunes

Then you have to wonder if there are actual galaxy police officers. Of course, I went there too.

Shantel wanted a quiet Valentine’s Week. Instead her life was invaded by monsters, vines that were alive and alien cops. Could she love three hot alien cops who offered her the stars.

Amazon

Itunes

Barnes & Noble

Kobo

 

So yes, some of my dreams do come from looking up at the sky at night, wondering if that special man or men are out there, waiting or searching for me. Do I believe there are others out there, yes. Is it a scary thought, yes. I mean think about it.

Would they feel we were a threat? Would they see us as a useless species? Or are their already alien’s walking among of us? I mean look at that person next to you. How could you tell where this individual comes from?

So many, many stories…

Who else loves space, S E Smith of course. Love this lady. She is amazing and the first story in her dragon series is free, which is focused out there in galaxy’s.

Abducting Abby is free!

Abby Tanner is content to live on her mountain creating her beautiful works of art and enjoying the peace and quiet. All of that changes when a strange golden space ship crash lands on it. Now, Abby has to deal with a golden ship, a tortured alien, and an insane local sheriff.
Zoran Reykill knew he had to find a safe place to heal after he escapes from a Curizan military post. When his symbiosis mothership takes him to an unknown planet he finds more than he expects – he finds his true mate. The only problems are Abby doesn’t understand a thing he says and the local sheriff wants her too. There is only one thing the King of Valdier can do, abduct his true mate.
Now Zoran has his hands full trying to keep his true mate safe in his own world while trying to help her accept her new life. He will need all the help he can get to help his stubborn human accept she can make a life in a place other than her mountain back on Earth. He just needs to keep her alive long enough to enjoy it and away from the other males on his planet who wouldn’t mind helping her accept her new sensual body.
One thing he knows he will never regret – abducting Abby.

 

Amazon

Barnes & Noble

Kobo

Website

 

 

But Susan is not the only one in her family who loves to look up. Her husband, Steve Smith has some amazing pictures. For an amateur he has taken some great pictures.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

On this night, stop what you are doing and look up at the sky. What do you see?

Middle-Age Dreams 1

Now that my children are all out of school, well public school, son is starting college in the fall. Dreams are coming to the forefront with me. I had my children late in life and now going on 55 next year, I too have dreams.

Today I’m going to talk about one said dream, traveling. I love to travel and yes I have a list of places I want to visit.

Dublin, Ireland

 

 

How can one not want to see Dublin. Plus, there is the fact I found out I’m over 57% Irish. I have to go to Ireland. The thought of traveling, seeing all the different sites. Maybe two weeks for the first visit. I know I’ll be there in October 18-19, 2019 for a book sighing. Here is the link if you would like to know more. https://www.facebook.com/groups/280961552283197/

Malahide castle near Dublin by autumn

 

Yes, there are many places I plan to visit. Castles are on my high priority of course. I mean come on, think of knights in the old days, sigh.

Second, I want to visit many different pubs. I’ve heard so much about the food and of course will have to try one of their Ale’s even though I’m not much of a drinker. Who knows maybe I’ll find me one of those knights while there.

So, if you are in Ireland write down the date above! I’d love to meet you and talk. Maybe you can give me some places to see that are not known. You never know maybe I’ll write a story or two too.

On the writing front, many, many projects. Right now I have put aside everything to work on a special project coming out in November, but can’t say anything about that.

Next, I’m working on book 2 of my White Buffalo MC series. Dark Horses book is coming along nice.

Third, I’m working on my third Sugar Daddy series book. I also have, another Grandma Needs Loving booking in the works too.

Yep, I’m going to do a live Facebook chat here soon, so make sure you following along. I will have prizes, and all sorts of fun things. So if you have questions, start writing them down now.

 

It’s contest time! For a print, signed copy of Running Wolf’s story in my White Buffalo series, Hunger of the Heart just share my links below! I’ll pick a winner next week! 

Hunger of the Heart the first book!
Amazon Universal Link: http://mybook.to/Hungerofheart
Kobo: https://www.kobo.com/us/en/ebook/hunger-of-the-heart-1
Google Play: https://play.google.com/store/books/details/Trinity_Blacio_Hunger_of_the_Heart?id=VG5_DgAAQBAJ
Bookstrand: http://www.bookstrand.com/hunger-of-the-heart
Smashwords:
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/714229
Barnes & Noble: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/hunger-of-the-heart-trinity-blacio/1126049091?ean=2940157332990

How Well Do You Know My Stories?

Good evening. I was going to write a little story of my precious here below, but right now I’m struggling to stay away from said Kitty. Not only does this kitty have to sleep at my head, this little thing decided to gag most of the night keeping me up all night. Guess who is out cold in my bed right now!  Cats….

But I guess for a cat that over twenty we believe, my Missy is awesome. She’ll take on any dog no matter what size as my sisters huge lab found out this last summer. Needless to say said dog will not get out of the car when sister comes over. Yes, she is a fierce on even in old age.

So today I tonight I thought I would post a few sentences from my books blurbs. You tell my in the comments below what book is said book from.

Now you can check out each blurb on Amazon or here on it’s page. What will you win? How long will this contest go for? One week, till next Friday. Your prize!

That’s right his Mystic gem ring will be yours.

  1. It seems the Great Sprit has responded to his need in the form of a witch-gypsy, Kizzy Lala, who happens to be helping the last survivors of a people thought long dead.
  2. Unfortunately, he can’t enjoy his latest ménage a trios near as much as he’d like to because he knows there’s someone out there who is his true soul mate.
  3. And she has attracted the attention of three supernatural males – a wolf shifter, a demon man, and a dragon-alien enforcer who patrols the alternate worlds that Tabby had no idea were even out there.
  4. But Valentine isn’t the only one who has found Kesha–she has attracted four others that would have any women drooling like a Saint Bernard.
  5. Bryn was her dream man—he held her, comforted her, and even spanked her.

Slade here. Make sure you post your answers below in the comments to enter this contest!