What is time when a family is dealing with dementia? It either slows down or speed’s up so fast you don’t know which end is up. This last month has been one of those month’s. Where everything has flown by.
My older children hiding in their room, afraid of their father who is having a melt down, while I’m at work. Them texting me keeping updated, knowing I can’t leave work to come home. Doctor’s who don’t know why the hell my husband is in so much pain, tests and more tests.
This last week I celebrated my 55 birthday and the only thing I wished for was a night of quiet. Where I didn’t have to worry about what’s he doing now, where are my kids, how are we going to get by this next month? But as always life isn’t going to go away.
Along with the melt down, our family is also now dealing with death. A family member, son’s friend, and my high school friend. So, I apologize for not posting sooner, but this month was overwhelming to say the least.
As I sit here waiting to head to a funeral. I realize the last two days have been quiet. Husband hasn’t been in pain and is having some good days. I take deep breaths and enjoy these days. Even the children recognize when it’s good to enjoy it. Has anyone seen that new Alzheimer’s add? I swear it’s my new life.
Seeing the stress taking it’s toll on me, the doctor and I have started to work on getting me back to a healthy status. The diet is back and a little help with the depression. I will get through this and be strong, I have no choice.
Only I can change my life. No one can do it for me. Carol Burnett